Monday, April 7, 2008

I Know Better Than This....

I know better than this...I do I do I do. So why did I let it happen?! If you know me even a little bit, you know that I’m a die-hard dedicated East-Coast Power Pilates (which is the original Joseph Pilates program) fan. I suffered a significantly serious sports injury 6 years ago that left me in really bad shape for quite some time (ie not walking for months and months and not normal for 2 years…). After some big-time serious back surgeries and tons and tons (and tons and tons) of rehab and serious "blood sweat and tears" work…and Pilates…I recovered. And, in fact, I recovered to the point I was in better shape post-injury…due to my dedication to Pilates to the tune of 2-3 and sometimes four private sessions a week for the last almost 5 years.

So.... I know better than to back off my Pilates. I know better than this. But I screwed-up, gosh-darn it, I screwed-up. I let work get in the way and I dissed my private Pilates sessions for almost 2 months. And, I’ve injured my back by just leaning over a colleague’s desk the wrong (!) way to look at a stupid (stupid!!) report. When I stood up, I knew instantly I was in trouble. I went to my Pilates session this afternoon and it wasn’t good. So now I’m back in pain. I have a doctor's appt on Wed. I'm taking pain medication. Ed is carrying the load. Darn it, I am mad at myself for letting this happen because I know better than this…. It will all be okay….just need to recover and get back into it….it’s just a road I should not be on because..well, I know better than this…..

Send me positive thoughts, please. I'm feeling blue AND I'm mad at myself...neither good positive sentiments.

Gentle Hugs this time 'round,
Cindy

9 comments:

Isabella's Mommy & Daddy(Kim & John) said...

I am sooo sorry to hear that you are down right now...
But being the strong, inpiration lady you are...
You will be back in no time...
Gentle Hugs to you girly..
Hope you feel better soon...

Truly Blessed said...

OH NO! You can't have a bad back with two toddlers!

Here are good wishes and prayers that you're back to feeling good and able to enjoy your Pilates SOON.

Good thing you have Ed to carry some of the load...
(don't short yourself, even though he's doing more of the heavy lifting, you still carry your weight!).

Feel better soon!

Kelly

K1 said...

Cindy,

As someone who has suffered from a thrown-out back at the most inopportune times (is there ever really a good time to have it seize up) and has spent days laying on the floor because it hurt too darn bad to move, I totally feel your pain and empathize with you. My last episode was caused simply by getting up from a chair.

Take it easy until you can get back to your Pilates class. Will send prayers for recovery your way.

Karen "k1". Kelly's (Truly Blessed's) sister

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Dianne said...

So sorry to hear what you're going through. Shouldn't be allowed for mom's, especially with twins. (my husband just hurt his, again).
Sending healty thoughts and gentle hugs your way, that Pilates is right around the corner.

Kudo said...

Cindy

So sorry to here your back is hurting. Take it easy for a while and stretch as much as you can and get any inflimation under control. Rotate ice and heat that helps me along with Alive way better then Advil. Hang in there my ADR sister you will get through this bump in the road.

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Rony said...

Oh, darn Cindy! You know you have been so heavy on my mind. For one I dropped something off at the post office today only to discover the zip code was wrong! And what I was shipping was for YOU!! BUT, I think the package that was shipped last week for the "peanuts" had the wrong zip code on it!! Oh, I am so mad at myself.... I will be calling you..... pick up the phone. You and Sen are the same when it comes to the phone....lol... It's a good thing I'm NOT calling suicide hotline.

Leslie said...

Oh Cindy, my love, how awful. I was just thinking about how great of shape you were in and how healthy you are. I'll be praying tons and tons for you. Rest and take care of yourself. You'll be back - I just know it. Hang in there. Love you love you love you!

Les