I know better than this...I do I do I do. So why did I let it happen?! If you know me even a little bit, you know that I’m a die-hard dedicated East-Coast Power Pilates (which is the original Joseph Pilates program) fan. I suffered a significantly serious sports injury 6 years ago that left me in really bad shape for quite some time (ie not walking for months and months and not normal for 2 years…). After some big-time serious back surgeries and tons and tons (and tons and tons) of rehab and serious "blood sweat and tears" work…and Pilates…I recovered. And, in fact, I recovered to the point I was in better shape post-injury…due to my dedication to Pilates to the tune of 2-3 and sometimes four private sessions a week for the last almost 5 years.
So.... I know better than to back off my Pilates. I know better than this. But I screwed-up, gosh-darn it, I screwed-up. I let work get in the way and I dissed my private Pilates sessions for almost 2 months. And, I’ve injured my back by just leaning over a colleague’s desk the wrong (!) way to look at a stupid (stupid!!) report. When I stood up, I knew instantly I was in trouble. I went to my Pilates session this afternoon and it wasn’t good. So now I’m back in pain. I have a doctor's appt on Wed. I'm taking pain medication. Ed is carrying the load. Darn it, I am mad at myself for letting this happen because I know better than this…. It will all be okay….just need to recover and get back into it….it’s just a road I should not be on because..well, I know better than this…..
Send me positive thoughts, please. I'm feeling blue AND I'm mad at myself...neither good positive sentiments.
Gentle Hugs this time 'round,