The Capture of an Amazing Moment

When a moment...a really amazing moment...is happening, I try hard to remember to pause, scrunch-up my eyes, take a deep breath and take a deep smell, and let the moment get "captured-up" in my body...in my head and in my nerves and in the fiber of my "me-ness". Then, when the going gets rough and tough and I am in dire need of something to lighten my load, I take the same deep breath and I take the same deep smell and remember.

I had the honor of capturing such a moment yesterday. After their afternoon nap, I held them both in my lap and rocked them in our nursery glider....a big cushy awesome chair. Sammi's head was on my left shoulder and Nicki's on my right. They were facing each other. They were both...at the same time which is a bit rare for them...feeling very cuddly. As they faced each other, Sammi's leg was draped over Nicki's leg and their arms were slung out across each other. Their hair smelled good as I had given them a bath in the morning (to clean-up syrup-baby's hair). They were drifting in and out of sleep but occasionally each would look up and smile at me or at each other and then drift back to sleep. The weight of their bodies in both arms and on my shoulders and across my lap, the smell, the "coo-ing", the whole amazing moment was magic. And it was almost like they, too, knew something very special was happening to the three of us right then and there. At that moment. No one wanted to move....no one wanted to change anything...we just were...

How come I got this lucky? How come I got all of this? My marriage, my babies, our health, our happiness, our amazing joy....Yep, sure, there are a lot of tough moments and lots of adjustment after 20 years of married/no-children....But all of this....all that I have now...Never thought it would or could happen like this...that I'd be this double-lucky...that I would be capturing a lot of these kinds of moments...

S0, I paused, scrunched-up my eyes, took a deep breath and a deep smell, and I let the moment get all "captured-up" in my body...in my head and in my nerves and in the fiber of my "me-ness". It'll be there later when I need it....