I am venting quite a lot here about work-life-children-husband balance....Love any suggestions about how it works for you? Is it even possible to manage the time-wrap bus....? You know, you get on the bus one day (let's say we got on last Spring following a really nice and relaxing set of trips we had with the Uncles (Josh and Lloyd, of course) and their entourage and Anita and family)....and then it zoomed through all-of-Summer (it clearly did not make the "Summer" stop) until Sept when The Bus stopped for us to all get back with the Uncles and with RonyKatieAbbie and Col for a beach trip....but then...then...The Bus did not stop until now. What is this...Feb? The Bus did not STOP for 5 crazy months?
And you know why it stopped now? Because we've all been sick (all four) for 6weeks. Ed is still sick. I am really venting now. This situation is ...um, shall I say...."sub-optimal". When I say the "Bus does not stop", I mean, no extra time to just do me-things that do not involve Ed and/or girls. None. No ice-skating, no girl-time (which I need BADLY), no blogging (which i do enjoy), no blogging and photography time, no consistent working out, no consistent Pilates, no girlfriend time (yes, i did already say that and I really need it)....Just work, girls, work, girls, work, work, girls...(not too much Ed in there either....).
I know the real problem, of course. My job is way-way too demanding since i got this last promotion last Spring. I need to get that under control better. I love-love-love the work as it is fascinating and actually, fun, but i am SO NOT balanced. I work too hard and then when i come home, i collapse. On weekends, I just hang-out and do projects with the girls. And...of course....when Ed is sick (like he has been FOREVER....), it is very difficult slipping out for me-time as i don't want to pay a babysitter $12/hour just so I can have a class of wine...makes for an expensive glass of wine. And, having my friends here don't help as girls are underfoot and it does not give me my break...
So, I'm trying to take a better look at this. I have no intention of reducing my job or cutting back and take a lesser role as I love my job and i love the work and I'm really good at what I do. It is a huge part of my identity. Anyone else facing the big-huge-demanding job (this job is...as you can imagine...so not 40 hours a week....bet it more line 55-60 hours a week), young children, not finding enough-me.....and I need it as I"m stressed not having it and.....actually....am thinking i'm feeling a bit depressed, too. Would love to hear some ideas....
Hugs,
cin